I have always had a wild soul yurning for more.

It has led me into many adventures in life from raving in the forests of Norfolk, cycling through mountain ranges in South East Asia to touring orphangeas and slums throughout India with a circus troupe.

The unknown has always excited me and led me to my next adventure. Constant change felt cathartic to my firey nature. It also provided very effective escape from deep inner turmoil as there was always something new to process externally.

My greatest challenge has been to stop, to send down roots and to build lasting, nourishing and meaningful connections with myself, my beloved and my motherland.

This has also been the place that my deepest healing has happened.

Not long after falling in love with my now husband Sam deep inner turmoil surfaced and sent me into an emotional spiral of confusion and pain. I had always struggled in relationships; losing my sense of self, feeling trapped and like the only option was to pack up and run. This time however I knew things were different. I realised this all too familiar pain was mine, not the relationships. I was no longer prepared to endlessly run from my struggles, I new they would show up again the next time I wanted to stop and go deep. I also had a strong knowing that this relationship was worth evolving for. In fact it was helping me to evolve.

I trained as a yoga teacher and found tools to cultivate inner peace and strength. I fell in love with acro yoga and built a local community and a training school to empower people to connect with their bodies, their playful nature and each other.

I found purpose, connection and expression. I love supporting others to thrive, growing in confidence, trust, expression and play.

Life was beautiful but I knew there was more. Deep inside I was still hurting and confused and I knew that more was possible, in myself, my life and in my closest relationships where I still felt so much pain and turmoil.

I didn’t know how to make the changes I so deeply desired. Through various attempts at therapy I made small but significant progress.

Motherhood gave me a doorway, taking me deeper within the miracle of existence and the miracle of my own human form.

I fell so in love with my baby my heart burst open in the presence of this beautiful precious life, I melted in the miracle of his existence.

I also felt alone, a drift in a vast sea, drowning in wave upon wave of breast milk, puke, baby poo and mama tears.

I was lost in the confusion of my shift of identity. No longer knowing who I was or how I was meant to show up in the world beyond the bubble of my jelly state of mama-baby.

I longed so deeply to make a magical life for my new young family.

I longed so deeply to feel alive, free, empowered and connected in my experience as a mother, lover and whatever else I wanted to be. 

I felt a long way from this.

I was exhausted, confused and totally overwhelmed.

Where to start?

I remembered a key teaching from a permaculture training I had taken: when planning a permaculture project: create zones and start your work with the central zone, learning how to create and nurture efficient life giving systems right from the centre, then move out zone by zone.

This made sense to me. I applied the same theory to my family life. Where was the centre?… my home, no. deeper....Well in my womb. This place of creation.

And in my sexual energy this mysterious creative life force.

I needed to go right in and understand, heal and learn how to harness this epically powerful resource. I wanted to honour my body, and it's amazing journey of pregnancy, birth and motherhood and also find out more about this insanely powerful portal of creation I had within me.  

I stumbled across an advert for a sacred sexuality Jade egg training; an ancient Taoist practice developing women's pelvic floor muscles alongside visualisations, breath-work and self touch, to move and activate energy from our reproductive organs through our body, nourishing our whole system.

A clear, loud voice, deep with in said : YES. THIS.

I trusted that voice and leant in. I learnt how to direct my creative life force energy through my body, clearing and activating my chakras and opening up my energy channels. My years of yoga and circus arts expanded through me in a new direction of expression and growth…

I learnt how to light myself up from inside out and access my own innate, wellspring of life.

These practices supported me to feel whole, beautiful and bountiful in my feminine form. My peace, joy, pleasure and power expanded. I started to love my self deeply. It felt more fun to be in my body. My marriage started to evolve in joyous ways.

Lit up by the power of this work I trained as a Sex, Love and Relationship coach, working even deeper with the ancient wisdom’s of Taoism and Tantra, alongside modern neuroscience and transformational coaching techniques. This was richly transformative for me and my family, further healing painful relational patterns and opening up pathways for a passionate, loving and deeply nourishing relationship with my partner and with myself. Big shifts and awakenings started to happen.

In August 2020 I birthed my second son Silver, under the moon and stars, sheltered by an oak tree, with my hands and knees entangled in wet grass, lovingly held by mother earth.

I experienced a multi-orgasmic birth, in which I felt myself blissfully connected with heaven and earth, all of my chakras activated in between.

Some may have described it as a kundalini awakening.

In this moment that my son was born, an embodied vision for earth and womb healing landed in my being.

Wild Mama Roars is the song that was sung through my womb after birth.

Wild Mama Roars, the roar of life its self.